Tomorrow or today

I woke up to the rumbling of distant thunder today!  It was the only thing in the world that could’ve saved such a dreary and gloomy morning, even if it stopped before I could get myself up and out of bed.  Then it rained poured down for hours on end, before the wind suddenly stopped and the weather cleared up late in the evening.  Just in time for the annual fireworks concert, too!

It was very nice indeed.

I`m currently listening to ‘Spiegel im spiegel’ and calming myself after a very long and strange day.  I don’t think I`m going to travel tomorrow anyway, because I haven’t really packed anything. And if the weather today is any hint, I don’t want to travel at all tomorrow.  ‘Tis a good thing I planned a day ahead, so I could do this!

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*yawns*

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Attack

Y’know, I`ve been talking a bit lately about going to Sweden to work, and moving to my uncles (plural, yes) nearby so I have a place to stay whilst working.  Well, this morning I got a message asking if I could come in early and start working right away, which would clash horribly with my plans to see my cousin tomorrow, not to mention attending the yearly (and very traditional to me) fireworks concert in town on Friday.  Naturally, I am not too pleased about this.  I haven’t even had time to pack anything, and getting there as early as Saturday was having high hopes!  Then I got the news that it’s because one of my uncles had a heart attack yesterday.  That’s why my other uncle can’t work, so they want me in.  I`m stuck.  Do I just throw everything into a bag, drop every plan (which I`ve been looking forwards to for several months!) and go right into a job I`m unprepared for, more than 4 hours away from here?  I really don’t want to be a bad person, but I can’t just do that!  And now my darling uncle is in the hospital, and I know the other one will be completely devastated, and his sister is my boss, and…  I really hate this.   My poor uncle!  =(

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I`m trying to plan out how I`m gonna go about my week now that I suddenly have everything happening all at once.   Visit from cousin, where to put her?  Music for the (half-royal) fireworks on Friday, where to stay then?  Traveling far east on Saturday or Sunday to obscure parts of the family, must pack for several weeks!  Start working on Monday or Tuesday?  Must do everything before the weekend, then.

I also need to shop for work clothes, get Wendy (my new iPhone) super-synched so I can still listen to music (and other types of audio) while abroad without Internet connection, aaaaand… I`m moving out from here.  Wait, I am NOT going to stress with that before I go work!  After, then.  One week of intense packing AFTER work, and then I`m out of here, on my own, unsure of where I`m gonna stay.           I hate uprooting.    And packing.

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It’s been less than ten weeks.  Less than TEN* short weeks, both an eternity and the single blink of an eye in the big picture.  So much has happened in this short amount of time,  all because of  one person  and it’s been somewhat of an avalanche of events.  I almost gave someone all the honor just now, but I can’t justifiably contribute everything that has happened to just one person, no matter how important he/she might`ve been to get things going.  That would be like obtaining a goal through hard work and then saying it was all God or Buddha or something.  Fuck no, most of it came from within yourself!  Why would you let someone else take that honor away from you?  I`m proud of what I`ve done lately, even if I had to let out parts of my inner self in uncomfortable ways now and then.  It’s the price to pay for moving forwards, according to some people.  I don’t easily agree with that kind of shit, I need some pretty solid proof first.  And it ain’t proof until I understand it for myself. And understanding, real understanding, can only be done by one person:  You.

So, uhm… yeah.   I have no idea where I was going with this tangent.

I guess I just needed to vent.  There’s a lot of energy happening these days.

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*berre neuf om tres dagar.

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Thomas Bergersen – Illusions

This beautiful piece of music is currently the only thing keeping me sane. …-ish.

There’s no accounting for taste, I know.  But here you have it, my perfect track. Maybe I`ll change my mind in a few weeks, maybe in a few years. Who knows?  But right now, this (and most of the other tracks created by the same genius) is the musical incarnation of beauty to me.

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Week 5

Okay, maybe I was supposed to post this a week ago.   Details, details.

So, what did I memorize  this  last week?

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When You are Old, by W.B. Yeats.

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When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

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Soundtracks, genres, Zimmer and Silvestri

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I`m back to being stuck on movie music again.  I don’t think it’s going to last as long as it has previously, since my “normal” collection has expanded so much lately (due to some very good recommendations this year) and taken over my listening time.

 

‘Soundtracks’ would be the only genre I actually sort by.  When listening to my other stuff, I don’t care if it’s classical or R&B or hiphop or rock or trash.  I listen to what I want to listen to, and genre makes no difference in that regard. There’s no accounting for taste, I guess.  But I just don’t care about what genre I`m listening to.  Unless all movie music would be its own genre, that is.  But hey, there’s a lot of difference there too!  I don’t like to mix Hans Zimmer with Alan Silvestri, for example.  Actually, I`m not sure if I like to mix any composer like that at all, now that I think about it.  Zimmer and Harry Gregson-Williams go well together, but since  that’s an intended co-operation, I`m not sure it counts. Because it’s Remote Control Productions.  It’s just different.

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As it is with nearly all composers, most of Alan Silvestri’s stuff sounds the same.  His use of beats and repetitive percussion and then the equally repetitive softer parts just gets a bit much sometimes.  That’s why I really liked the main theme from Captain America, he makes such a recognizable theme, impossible to confuse with other stuff of his!  Ah, but then he does the action-scene music, and it’s like listening to Van Helsing all over again.  Not bad at all, don’t get me wrong, I love that soundtrack as well, it just gets a bit boring after a while.  He goes a bit beyond what I`m used to hearing from him in the Avengers soundtrack, which is probably why I like it so much.  It’s just brilliant!

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I`m currently caught up in the epic that is this new Norwegian(!) composer who sounds a lot like Hans Zimmer.  My brain may have melted a little.  Pardon my meltdown, but this guy has made something so spectacular that I`m AMAZED that I had not even heard about it before now!   Just… listen!

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A little note in the early hours

A good morning to you, though I am unsure as to whether it is morning or not. It’s just past midnight, after all.  But I just got up after a long day of sleep, because there was a mosquito buzzing around my ears.   Do not want!!

Yesterday, there was a light fog of sorts hanging about and being gloomy.  It came from the forests earlier,  I saw sneaking in through the trees and over the ferns while I was out, like a magical mist.  But I was fairly sure it would be another day of glorious sunlight, and no dementors.

Actually, it took quite a few hours more for the sun to come out than I expected.  The fog turned into gloomy & gray skies for a while, but the sun finally broke through like a champion, a little before 11 am.  And by 1 pm, I was unable to stay outside for more than a little while, even if I lay on the cool grass with the wind blowing.  Summer really is here.  I miss spring.

I`m also trying to figure out why I am so extremely affected by certain variations in my diet, and how I can avoid salt better while still making my favorite dishes.  Thank the heavens for cumin, lovage and parmesan!  I would say chili and garlic as well, but those are not at all for everyday use.  Fresh paprika, on the other hand…

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Here, have a much nicer sunset from 09.

 

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What we are sure he would never say to us:  I think it is important for you to know that I possess a multitude of feelings toward you that reside in the deepest parts of my heart. I have these overwhelming stirrings of great fondness for you, and I think the best way for me to show you these emotions is to tell you plainly that I completely, utterly, and wholeheartedly adore and admire you, and what I am really trying to say is that despite the multitude of facets and nuances of your personality, and the complexity of your character, my love for you knows no conceivable bounds.

What we daily say to him:  FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING FUCK

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Eff you, uterus

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I`m having a very good time, and I`m not quite sure if it’s just the painkillers or the several hours spent with my hot water bottles firmly clutched to my tummy.

*squints at screen with photosensitive eyes*

I really want to move my computer next to my bed so I can just spend the whole night reading, but after my crazy redecorating it’s become SO much more work to move stuff around, and I`m lazy.  I`m even too lazy to actually do something lazy!  -_-

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I just downloaded a program called Dark Room, so that I won’t be bothered by a bright white background in my eyes while I`m noting jotting down whatever.

Plus, now I can live-blog my movies without  closing or opening the windows because of the very annoying light-issues!  Yay~

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Week 4

It’s me and my lists again.  I am making this thing to keep track of something.  Because I really like keeping track of things.  Especially my own things.  And the blog works perfectly for keeping track of my memorizing progress.

To quote (for no particular reason) myself:

“What if I actually try to memorize something new every week?  Wouldn’t that be just ruddy brilliant?  That’s the kind of challenge I would really like to try!  (…)  Anyways, I think I`ll start noting down a couple of tidbits here and there.  I am still unsure about what system I should use, and how to list things properly.”

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Week 1:

The last soliloquy in Macbeth,  by William Shakespeare

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Week 2:

As I Walked Out One Evening,  by W. H. Auden

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Week 3:

He Wishes For The Cloths Of Heaven,  by W.B.Yeats

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Week 4:

So, We’ll Go No More A-Roving,  by Lord Byron.

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Back up, back down

…so, two (or is it three?) days later, I`m back to say good morning on an actual morning.  It’s sometime after 10 am right not, but I woke up at 5 am today.  That wasn’t intended at all, but since I had planned an early morning anyway, I didn’t go back to sleep.  It’s been a weird morning, as I`m still not used to being on early Scandinavian time (as opposed to American time, which is several hours behind).

This chair is too terrible to contemplate reading on the computer, and I`m not in the mood to move the screen around because I`m lazy.  So I`m stuck with a tired and thoughtless brain, and my tea once again going cold.  Just another Monday morning, I guess.  Why is it I`m unable to drink my tea while it’s still warm, and constantly forget about it until it’s cold?

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Go the f*ck to sleep!

Good morning, boys and girls!   …or whatever.

*has been in a Sparrow mood lately*

It’s almost 10am over here, and the sun is shining.  I’ve already been out shopping for groceries, and then had some breakfast and ate all the bread I`m not allowed to eat, and right now I`m sipping my tea and feeling a headache coming on.  Not surprising, really, as I did not sleep at all this night either.  There was just too much of EVERYTHING running through my brain all at once.  All night.  *headdesk*

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Liesmith

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I`ve learned how to make lies into truth.  It’s very handy for social interaction.  In fact, I`m very well liked for it.  And the best thing is, it stopped being lies and really did become the truth!  For example, I`m very good at giving casual compliments.  Little things, like “Nice blouse!” or “You write really well.” and that kind of stuff.  That’s not lies, it really is true.  But it took me years of training through lies to end up there.  Don’t ever tell me lies can’t be good!

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Bitterweet

I`m having one of those moods that aren’t exactly bad, but not really all that good either.  The kind of bad mood that would lead into depressiveness if I didn’t now know how to stop that particular process before it takes off.

I`m teetering on the brink, never really falling over, but still balancing precariously on the edge of whatever, at the start of forever.  Trying not to talk to people, and instead writing them huge messages and then deleting the whole thing as soon as I realize what I`ve been on the verge of spilling.  These straight-from-the-kidney beans are not meant to be spilled.

I`m in love, and I`m not in love.  I don’t know what love is, and I never knew what love was until now.  All of this is true, in its own way.  I hate it, I want it to stop, and I don’t ever want it to end.  There are so many chaotic feelings involved, and I cannot even decide whether to be horrified or giddy about it!

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Shake yer bootey!

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I am borrowing a stomach-shaker fat-vibrator-thingie from a friend, a kind of belt that massages/vibrates the stomach muscles.  We call it The Butt-Shaker.

I am trying it out right now.  It is darn hilarious!

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Me:   *RRRRRRrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRrrrrr*AHAHAHAHAHAHAH*rrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRR*

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Stuff to memorize? A challenge? Let’s begin this!

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I have now made myself several new categories on this blog under the apt headline of ‘Stuff I Memorize’.  Why?  Because I want to keep track of THAT too!

We already know I like to keep track of everything I do, so today I figured out I might as well have that list take place right here on this site, instead of opening yet another  kind of blog somewhere solely to track the things I memorize.

*coughMovieBlogcough*

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And while I was thinking of this, I was also wondering if I might be able to make it into a challenge?  What if I actually try to memorize something new every week?  Wouldn’t that be just ruddy brilliant?  That’s  the kind of challenge I would really like to try!

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Memorizing can be darned tough for me, it’s NOT a thing that comes easily, no matter what some people think.  I worked bloody hard for every single poem I know, it’s only a select few songs that really get stuck on my brain easily.  And that’s because they usually worm their own way in.  When I try to remember, it can take days.  So it’s not something that comes naturally, because lyrics and lines are two completely different things.

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Anyways,  I think I`ll start noting down a couple of tidbits here and there.  I am still unsure about what system I should use, and how to list things properly.

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